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Hmm. my computer may have taken to doing that thing it does right before it crashes and loses everything I love. So I'm just going to update my online files right about now.

On the other hand, it may simply be turning itself off for no good reason. But see above.

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Father's Day reports are always so weird to read. In their own way, they're sort of as strange as reading reports of religious holidays I don't observe.

My father actively doesn't believe in Father's Day. He's not fond of any of the materialist holidays in general, and also anti-the holidays that treat people specially one day a year--either he's my father and thus special every day, or not at all. Sometimes i have trouble deciding which is the case, it's true... If I'm pissed with him in mid-June, I'll call him specifically to wish him a Happy Father's day. (likewise, I buy him birthday presents when I'm annoyed as well.)

And I have several boat loads of stuff to go home this weekend (books for my mom, books for my dad, various other stuff for both of them, wedding presents (one light and fairly compact, one freakishly heavy and unweildy--I think it parallels the couple, how cute), and my dress for the wedding, which isn't even counting anything I might need for time not spent in the wedding), and I'm told that there isn't a lot of space in the car, and I don't know why we decided that the 4 of us should spend 8 hours in a 2 door car, but I predict a really miserable trip and everyone hating me by the time I get home (well, hating me even more), and that's not even counting the fact that I have to get my stuff to JP by 8:30 am on friday. And frankly, if I'd ever wanted to be in JP at 8:30 am, I would have moved there. And my brother said, "take a cab" but I hate doing that here because I never know how much it should be. The only place I didn't mind was in DC where it was all zoned, and I knew exactly how much it would cost before I even got into the car. So I'm going to take the stupid orange line which mean I have to leave the house at like, 7:30 because it ends up taking about an hour to get to JP. My brother says, "it's only 25 minutes," but that's just actual on-the-train time, it doesn't include getting to Downtown crossing (particularly at rush hour when everyone is getting in my way) and waiting for a train. So I hate everything.

HATE.

Particularly the fact that it's fiendishly hot outside, and I have no attractive and/or warm weather clothing.

HATE.

I predict that I'll get my mother to say, "Oh, for Christ's sake Celia, if you're going to be that difficult just don't come home," within 10 minutes of talking tonight. Unfortuntately, she won't actually mean it.

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wow. I have now paid more on my school loans than I have left to pay. This month was apparently the critical month, judging from my loan balances.

I'm trying to decide I should jump back down to a lower payment so I have more money for paying off credit cards for a bit. I'm having cash flow issues at the moment, and what drives me crazy is I don't know why, since I didn't think I'd been spending more of it than usual. Oh, wait. Except for the $330 on eye doctor stuff this month. yeah, that would help. Why do I keep using my debit cards for the big things and the credit card for the little things? And in the long run, which is a healthier thing to do? Should I continue doing it that way?