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oh, with the deadness. I should do this whole post in italics, I'm that dead. I'm sitting down now waiting for a few moments, whereupon I will get up and go get money so I can get something caffinated and maybe even something food like.

Everything is in boxes and moved to the basement of the house. All my clothing is also in plastic bags within the boxes and suitcases cause we're having mouse problems, and mouse related problems, so better safe than sorry. My books are on a shelf on the fourth floor. I got up an hour earlier than usual, showered, finished throwing everything into boxes, started jostling things around. I got everything cleaned up by the time one of my friends came to help me with the boxes. He promptly disapeared with them and never returned, and I finished dusting and sweeping, and was actually *out of the house* no later than I usually am. I'm very impressed with myself. So now I have a bag with my laptop in it, and a bag with my clothing for the week in it, and my purse, and the walk was killer, and I'm finally okay enough to go get food and caffiene, so I'll be back later.

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I'm always bothered, for some reason, by being told that something is a "really good picture of [me]" And I'm not sure why--I mean, it's a compliment, they're saying I look good, right? it seems likely that most of it has to do with my self-image and the fact that it's currently so negative it's approaching kelvin. I think that a lot of it is that I look at it and think I look awful, and so for someone to say I look good makes me suddenly *positive* they're saying that I have some sort of totally twisted mental picture of myself and that I'm just deluding myself most of the time, thinking I look good. This picture, anyway, isn't nearly as bad as some pictures of myself that I've seen. It's from the pubcrawl of a couple of weeks ago--we'd stopped someone in the street between two bars and asked them to take a photo. We all turned out well, though my roommate has her eyes closed--but attractively closed, not squinted shut or anything.