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I'm always bothered, for some reason, by being told that something is a "really good picture of [me]" And I'm not sure why--I mean, it's a compliment, they're saying I look good, right? it seems likely that most of it has to do with my self-image and the fact that it's currently so negative it's approaching kelvin. I think that a lot of it is that I look at it and think I look awful, and so for someone to say I look good makes me suddenly *positive* they're saying that I have some sort of totally twisted mental picture of myself and that I'm just deluding myself most of the time, thinking I look good. This picture, anyway, isn't nearly as bad as some pictures of myself that I've seen. It's from the pubcrawl of a couple of weeks ago--we'd stopped someone in the street between two bars and asked them to take a photo. We all turned out well, though my roommate has her eyes closed--but attractively closed, not squinted shut or anything.