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tanaiseMeh. I had unspecific anxiety dreams this morning. Unspecific as to why I have them now, not as to what was anxious making in the dream. I was flying somewhere for something important--possibly moving--and I hadn't started packing at all, and I couldn't find my plane ticket, and I couldn't remember what time it was, or even what airline it was, and the confirmation email wasn't anywhere to be found (and it was eeriely detailed, such as searching my eudora for the email and such, and I had this sinking feeling that I was really really wrong, and the flight had taken off already. I kept throwing random things into a suitcase, and then checking online for my email, and then doing something else, and then back to packing, and so on and so forth. Though as I said to the kitchen when I was telling them my dream, I'm not surprised I'm anxious about something, I'm just wondering what aspect of it is making me *that* anxious
And then to make up for that, the next dreamlet was the cute boy at the house making a date with me for coffee. See, he'd sent me an email last week saying he'd like to go for coffee with me while he's staying at the house, and saturday at one point when we'd been talking while walking over to the North End, he'd said, "When I said we should get coffee, I meant the two of us, going somewhere for a couple of hours, not just sitting in the kitchen talking--you knew that, right?" I agreed that I did, though technically I hadn't known for sure until that point. *that* counts as a date, whereas retroactively telling me in the kitchen, while a number of people are talking about dates and dating and all that, that going to the movies was a date doesn't. :P
And then I probably messed up the morning of the girl who works at the Tealuxe by joking--*joking*--that while she was good, it wasn't really the same. I meant without the presense of Chaiboy, but I think I inadvertantly tapped into one of those underlying fears that everyone has and that it's impossible to correct because it's the thing you knew all along was true and everyone was just being nice not mentioning it. She's apparently ESL, though really good--I knew she was nervous working there, but I thought it was just nerves, not insecurity over her language skills. I explained it all, but she still seemed worried about it, so I feel guilty. I just meant that I miss chatting with Ryan before work, nothing bad about her. meh. *guilt*
And then I got to work and managed to forget a lot of the important things about work, like where I put files and how I look at files on the testing servers, and basically just want to sit here and stare at the computer blankly. And while I am wearing cute clothing today, it would be cuter if I'd worn a different top---I've got my misty grey skirt and a lilac top on today, and while as individual elements, they're both cute, as an outfit, it's a little shapeless, and I feel much less cute than I was aiming for.
Wow, Garden State looks kinda interesting. This is why stalking pays off--the person listed under 'waiter' is one of my roommate's friends from home, and it's unlikely that at any point I'd have looked up Zach Braff, despite having been quite fond of Scrubs.
I realized the other day that if I'm moving back into the house when I currently think I will be, I once again may be dumping off a suitcase on my way out of town and then coming back to the house. But I don't know for sure if I'll be moving in that weekend, or if I'll be going to my college reunion, though I really hope I am. Depends on money, as so many other things do, really.
I really hate reading posts with multiple rows of < hr > breaks. *reallyreally*. They always feel pointless, like rows of unconnected thoughts, and they annoy me. But yet I find myself using them from time to time. I'm sorry. I'll try and be less hypocritical in the future.
I'm not getting enough comments lately, so I'd like people to tell me what their oddest bookmarked page is, and why they bookmarked it. Mine, I just fixed the link for: Netty's Royalty Page. Your source for all the info on unmarried princes and princesses that you could possibly want (okay, I could want some better pictures, but how picky can I really be?). It's bookmarked because my roommate and my officemate at ESSI both read the spanish gossip mags, which obsessively cover royalty. And I needed a cheat sheet.
And then to make up for that, the next dreamlet was the cute boy at the house making a date with me for coffee. See, he'd sent me an email last week saying he'd like to go for coffee with me while he's staying at the house, and saturday at one point when we'd been talking while walking over to the North End, he'd said, "When I said we should get coffee, I meant the two of us, going somewhere for a couple of hours, not just sitting in the kitchen talking--you knew that, right?" I agreed that I did, though technically I hadn't known for sure until that point. *that* counts as a date, whereas retroactively telling me in the kitchen, while a number of people are talking about dates and dating and all that, that going to the movies was a date doesn't. :P
And then I probably messed up the morning of the girl who works at the Tealuxe by joking--*joking*--that while she was good, it wasn't really the same. I meant without the presense of Chaiboy, but I think I inadvertantly tapped into one of those underlying fears that everyone has and that it's impossible to correct because it's the thing you knew all along was true and everyone was just being nice not mentioning it. She's apparently ESL, though really good--I knew she was nervous working there, but I thought it was just nerves, not insecurity over her language skills. I explained it all, but she still seemed worried about it, so I feel guilty. I just meant that I miss chatting with Ryan before work, nothing bad about her. meh. *guilt*
And then I got to work and managed to forget a lot of the important things about work, like where I put files and how I look at files on the testing servers, and basically just want to sit here and stare at the computer blankly. And while I am wearing cute clothing today, it would be cuter if I'd worn a different top---I've got my misty grey skirt and a lilac top on today, and while as individual elements, they're both cute, as an outfit, it's a little shapeless, and I feel much less cute than I was aiming for.
Wow, Garden State looks kinda interesting. This is why stalking pays off--the person listed under 'waiter' is one of my roommate's friends from home, and it's unlikely that at any point I'd have looked up Zach Braff, despite having been quite fond of Scrubs.
I realized the other day that if I'm moving back into the house when I currently think I will be, I once again may be dumping off a suitcase on my way out of town and then coming back to the house. But I don't know for sure if I'll be moving in that weekend, or if I'll be going to my college reunion, though I really hope I am. Depends on money, as so many other things do, really.
I really hate reading posts with multiple rows of < hr > breaks. *reallyreally*. They always feel pointless, like rows of unconnected thoughts, and they annoy me. But yet I find myself using them from time to time. I'm sorry. I'll try and be less hypocritical in the future.
I'm not getting enough comments lately, so I'd like people to tell me what their oddest bookmarked page is, and why they bookmarked it. Mine, I just fixed the link for: Netty's Royalty Page. Your source for all the info on unmarried princes and princesses that you could possibly want (okay, I could want some better pictures, but how picky can I really be?). It's bookmarked because my roommate and my officemate at ESSI both read the spanish gossip mags, which obsessively cover royalty. And I needed a cheat sheet.
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Date: 2004-08-02 10:07 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2004-08-03 12:56 am (UTC)Some Don'ts from Animals as Friends and How to Keep Them (by Shaw & Fisher, Dent 1939)
Don't keep a hedgehog in the house.
Don't keep bats unless you can fulfil the items under Cost.
Don't let your mongoose get cold or dirty, or it will die.
Don't try to tame an old fox.