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Aug. 25th, 2004 12:34 pmI'm going to be so lonely, living on my own. I was helping the boy be able to play MP3s on his Mac (which is too old to run iTunes, and nothing else seems to be available as a free program since itunes came out.), and once I found that yes, he did have a program on his computer that would play them, it was just a matter of downloading the files off the various CDs I have, and setting it up for him. Took longer than I'd hoped it would, so I ended up spending a couple of hours in his room--not talking or anything, just reading and monitoring the computer as needed.
That is what I know I will miss. Not the noise and fuss of the dinner table--I can come visit and get that whenever I want. I will miss sitting in the kitchen after dinner, when there's no one around but me and the mice, but I know that at any moment, up to 15 people could spill through there, and be gone again just as fast. I will miss sitting in a room with a good friend and not even needing to talk. I will miss knowing that I might be sitting all alone on my bed in my room, but if I get loney, I will be able to find one of the 9 other on that floor, or the 11 in the rest of the house at almost any hour of the night, really. I used to be so sad living in DC because it was always just me. And I'm so scared I'm going to end up with that again. It was one of the big reasons I moved away from DC, though I think i've already got more of a support group here as it is, since the boys at the office invite me to do things, and there's the house, afterall.
That is what I know I will miss. Not the noise and fuss of the dinner table--I can come visit and get that whenever I want. I will miss sitting in the kitchen after dinner, when there's no one around but me and the mice, but I know that at any moment, up to 15 people could spill through there, and be gone again just as fast. I will miss sitting in a room with a good friend and not even needing to talk. I will miss knowing that I might be sitting all alone on my bed in my room, but if I get loney, I will be able to find one of the 9 other on that floor, or the 11 in the rest of the house at almost any hour of the night, really. I used to be so sad living in DC because it was always just me. And I'm so scared I'm going to end up with that again. It was one of the big reasons I moved away from DC, though I think i've already got more of a support group here as it is, since the boys at the office invite me to do things, and there's the house, afterall.
